In this female dramatic monologue, SHELLY suffers from depression and she talks to her Doctor during a session.
SHELLY: Sometimes I stare inside myself and try to figure out how I can kill my inner core. There are days when I wish to remove myself, from myself. Start fresh. Anew. Mop myself clean and start over again. Keep the same outter shell but with new inner meaning and purpose. Sort of like an upgrade to an old program that doesn’t function as well as it should because it’s outdated. I desperately need to upgrade my system but there is no way for me to clean out my inner core. It will always remain…the remnants of my past, the wires that have rusted and gone awry…they will always stay in place…you can never disconnect from your past self…we may try and act like we do but deep down, we always carry the dirt.