In this teen drama monologue, HELENA talks to a friend about how she doesn’t want to be an actress.
HELENA: As it turns out, I’m going to be playing the role of Juliet, a very demanding role for my age but a role filled with dream and possibility…a role that I wish I didn’t have to play, quite honestly. You see, I’ve been forced into a theatrical family I have no intentions of being part of, except for my father, who has an ailing heart…if I did not play Juliet, the repercussions would be fatal. I don’t want that on my conscience. (pause.) I do it out of love for him but there is part of me that knows I will be free when my father does perish. I know these are terrible thoughts but I would finally be able to live the life I’ve always desired. I don’t want to have a life on the stage! I want to travel, fall in love, have a family, attend great evenings with the most important people in society…I want to tell tales…I wish to write, I, I want to be a writer and live a full life. I want to be the words that come out of a person’s mouth, I want to inject my heart through someone else’s veins but I cannot…we are poor commoners…peasants, theatrical tramps with not enough culture to support my wishes. My family, least of all my father, would never understand my needs. There must be some light, somewhere.